"Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. ...live in the question.”
I had a nightmare last night that I was out and at a group meeting sitting outside a restaurant. I felt so stressed because people were sitting very close and most didn't have masks on. Then I was being attacked by someone and I couldn't yell for help through my mask.
It was seriously stressful, but I know exactly where it came from. One of the yoga studios where I teach was feeling out ideas on how teachers felt about when and how to reopen. I can't wait to get back to teaching in person, but I feel like there's so much uncertainty in terms of how and when to do this in a way that's in everyone's best interest.
This uncertainty and these fears processed in my nightmare last night. I also taught a meditation last night about the root chakra and root chakra fears are clear in my nightmare also. These fears are related to a sense of security and feeling safe.
The root chakra is about being grounded and connected and allowing the earth to support you. I emphasized in the meditation the fact that there is so much uncertainty that all we have to connect to with certainty is this breath in and this breath out and our connection to the earth's energy supporting us.
My stress has always come from trying to figure out all the possible outcomes, but this meditation practice has taught me to keep coming back to the present moment awareness for grounding.
The demon of the root chakra is fear and my fear of how things will go back to "normal" comes and goes.
But the fear comes when we try to solve all of the questions in our hearts instead of seeing each moment and each day as an opportunity to live in the questions.
What is your question to live for today?
"Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart.
...live in the question.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet